I am quite conscious of my thoughts. That would not be news to some people who
know me well. I think this is probably
the reason why I decided from a young age that I would be a teetotaler –
because it was important to me that I always maintain cognizance of my thoughts,
and consciousness of my environment.
Something is different now, however.
If thoughts are ever categorized in layers, I am now much more conscious
of those layers and the categories into which my thoughts fall. As a cautionary note, this is not to be taken
as an introduction to, or an invitation to engage in an exploration or
speculations about the workings of my mind.
Believe me, such an effort would be tantamount to a royal waste of time. Indeed, it would be akin to the proverbial
chasing of shadows.
As I have been thinking and writing lately about love,
hate and my relationship with God, I have also found myself wondering why I am a
free man. Why, for example, am I not in
prison when through much of my life I have lived in violation of behaviors and
rules that were considered normative at various points in my lifetime? Why am I not being persecuted for anything when
so many people in the same world in which I live are being persecuted and even
killed for their religion, race, ethnicity, gender, sexual orientation and/or
political affiliation? Why am I even
alive when so many die even before they get to experience life to its optimal extent? I am content with the fact that I may never
know the answers to these and similar questions. I am also sufficiently self-aware that the
reason why I am not in prison or even under arrest is not because I am perfect
or because I am a better man than most who have faced persecution and/or are
either in prison or dead. Mahatma Gandhi,
Dr. Martin Luther King, Fela Kuti, Nelson Mandela and Muhammad Ali had records
of arrest in their lifetimes but each of them left imprints of an oversized
life that was magnified by the fact that he, like all in that group, rose to take
up a cause greater than himself. Even
among the living, we know of men and women like Wole Soyinka of Nigeria, Bishop Desmond Tutu of South Africa and Aung San Suu Kyi of Myanmar (to name a few) - all
individuals who experienced arrests as they stood up against powerful forces and
fought for social justice.
There are many reasons why I could be arrested,
imprisoned or dead - but I am not. In a
world in which being black in a racially heterogeneous society can be the impetus
for an arrest or even death, I am guilty of the “offence” of being black. Yet, I am a free man. At the same time, it is impossible to wipe
off my memory the images of people like me being chased by dogs and beaten by the
police; or of Dr. Martin Luther King and other civil rights leaders getting
arrested, humiliated and in many cases killed just so that people like me could
be where I am today. In a world in which
many people still regard interracial marriages as the wrong thing to do, and
where many churches still refuse to marry interracial couples or do so
grudgingly, I cannot forget the persecution and struggle of Mr. and Mrs. Loving
whose plight was taken up by Robert F. Kennedy, leading the United States Supreme
Court to legalize interracial marriages in 1967. That was not a very long time ago. Thanks to that important piece of history, interracial
couples in the United States no longer live under the threat of legal arrest and/or
prosecution. Any honest Christian knows
that many portions of the Bible support slavery but there is widespread
agreement that abolishing slavery in our society was the right thing to
do. Yet, I am concerned that so many of
us use the same Bible now to condemn others who do not do exactly what we do –
just in the same way that the Bible was used to justify slavery and opposition
to interracial marriages. Perhaps I
should wonder how many people of my faith ever ask themselves how we came about
this Bible that we read and believe in. How
many know that many people were killed between the 12th and 16th
Centuries just for trying to translate the Bible before the first translation
of the Bible was authorized? Now, there are
myriad translations of the Bible and I am free to read any of my choice without
fear of persecution, arrest or imprisonment.
Yet, in this same world, people are being persecuted daily for their
religion, and even members of the same family or community persecute one
another because they are members of different denominations of the same religion.
When any of us uses the Holy Book of our religion as a cudgel to whip others
who we disagree with because we have determined that they are sinners, we become
present-day persecutors and deny both the humanity of our brothers and sisters and
the existence and power of grace. When
we do that, we actually suggest by our deeds that others are unworthy of love, liberty
or even life because we are perfect and they are not like us. No human has the authority to assume the mantle
of authority and judgment, which belongs in the exclusive domain of the
Almighty. No man has the authority to be
judge, jury and executioner over a fellow man.
Everyone of us who now lives in freedom owes his/her life and freedom to
many giants who fought, suffered and/or died to make us free. Our job is to use their gift to make others
free and the best way to do that is not through conflict and hatred but by turning
our societies into communities of love and peace. We are not truly free until we stand against the
implicit and explicit suppression of those who may not look like us, love like
us or worship like us. I am conscious of
the fact that my freedom is a product of the work of others who fought and died
that I might have freedom. They did so without
even knowing me, my religion or my race.
I am therefore propelled by a desire keep running the race that I run in
the hope that one day when my time in this body is fully spent, it will be said
of me that I also fought the good fight.
To all who currently face persecution for any reason, I say this: If history
is anything to go by, please remain strong and hopeful. It will get better.